My new year began with something I didn't have last year.
I finally got home, almost a full 40 min late and I walk in the door still sniveling and sobbing. Alan hugs me and says it's ok, to just go get ready because we're late. As I'm getting ready, he tells me I have to find my anniversary gift because he didn't feel like wrapping it, and hands me an envelope. He then sends me on a goose hunt for more envelopes around our home, each one containing a clue about something we like or some joke we have. The last few send me to the basement, and the last clue is in our Nerf gun collection. It sends me back upstairs, to which I turn the corner at the top of the stairs and he was on one knee.
I, of course, said yes.
We then went to see his family, then out to dinner with our friends, and back home to ring in the new year with more friends.
Yeah, I got my first speeding ticket, but I also got engaged.
We're getting married!!!!!
So, to make this slightly more relevant to overall theme of this blog, I do want to say how happy and heart warming it was to see the "likes" and comments roll in on facebook when we posted it and the picture of the ring. I was so touched and taken aback by how much support there was. And it seems so silly, but again, after having been engaged & married before, I was so nervous that everyone would think I was crying wolf again. But the outpouring of support just made me tear up again. :)
I called my best friend to tell her the news, and after that I texted her the picture. She texted me back to say how happy she & her mom are for me after all that I've been through. But, to be honest, it's not been much more than many other young people. Even if mine included a divorce, many other people have dealt with similar stuff without the legal issues. But it does reassure me that if you use your experiences to learn and build yourself, and to soak it in, rather than let it beat you down into a bitter, angry person, that things will get better. It's all in your attitude, and your attitude is what will bring bigger and better things your way.
I'm so happy I could start crying again. <3
Edited to add: I keep forgetting to mention this, since it's on the inside and I can't see it, but Alan had the ring inscribed with a line from our song. It says "I'll never let you go," from Starlight by Muse. <3